Mike keeps telling me…um..reminding me that I need to blog more (since this is the blog of Mike AND Tracy). So, one of the things that is central to my life is the journey I am on to lose weight and get healthy.
A little background first. I’ve always been a “big” girl for most of my adult life – 16+ years and on. In high school I thought I was HUGE, but I wasn’t. I wore a 14/16 around this time which a year ago didn’t even seem like an attainable size to me. I hovered around 200lbs and stayed there through most of college, but then my depression and anxiety got the best of me and I let it take me away to happy food coma land and the weight started to pile on.
Skip ahead to a little over 3 years ago. I was at 300+ lbs and I got pregnant. I was thrilled, but I was pregnant AND 310 (give or take a few) lbs! My doctor told me I was in the “high risk” category for pregnancy because of my weight and my heart sank, but I didn’t have any problems the entire time and had a happy, healthy little girl. After losing the “baby weight” (30 more lbs) I stood at 315 – 320 lbs and I stayed there.
Then, around August 2012 I started “thinking” about “starting” to get healthy as I had done many times before, but I wasn’t really serious about it. I would work out here and there and maybe track my calories for half a day and stop. We went on vacation in September and I pigged out. When we got home I weighed in at 317lbs! Now I started getting mad at myself and I got determined to do something.
September 24th changed it all though. I was at work and started getting this strange tingling in my chest. After awhile my anxiety kicked in and I actually started getting worried about it. I went home after work, kept feeling this weird feeling in my chest and finally went to Urgent Care. An ambulance ride later and who knows how much blood and whatever tests later I was NOT having a heart attack, but I had one MAJOR wake up call.
It makes me upset sometimes to think that it wasn’t getting pregnant, it wasn’t having a kid, or it wasn’t weighing in at a whopping 317lbs that made me get off my ass, but thinking I was having a heart attack that did. But, it was MY wake up call. I want to be healthy for my family and for myself.
And that’s one of the biggest lessons I have learned so far…I have to think about MYSELF to be able to be healthy for my family.
Starting weight: 317lbs | Current weight: 249lbs | Goal weight: 175lbs