Tag: Running

Don’t be an Obstacle to Your Own Success

I think the last few posts I’ve made, I start out the same…”well it’s been awhile…blah, blah, blah”. The thing is, I could say it again, but I’m not going to. I’m starting this off with a challenge to myself, to write once a month. Honestly, for my mental health alone.

I’ve talked about strength a lot before, but I keep coming back to it and it’s timely to talk about once again with all of the stories coming from the Olympics of strength, grit and sportsmanship.

But how do we relate to the strength of an Olympian on our journey to becoming healthier and losing weight? I know it sounds impossible, but promise me you CAN.

Because that strength that every Olympian has, is in each of us. The key is to know that you have it and to use every ounce of it along the way for your own journey.

You may not be training to be the fastest runner or swimmer, but moving forward on your journey takes strength. Physical, and most importantly, mental strength. Mental strength is the most powerful but sometimes the hardest to come by. We overthink things, we psyche ourselves out, we are multitasking ourselves into the ground, we’re parents, students, worker bees, you name it.

Our greatest obstacle to success is the belief

Part of that mental strength comes in believing in ourselves. This is hard. I know. This is one of the areas where I constantly struggle and talk about on here (even in the last post). The belief that I can lift a little more weight or run a little further. Or how about the belief that I am parenting my kid the right way…don’t even get me started.

One of our greatest obstacles to success in anything, not just losing weight, is believing that we are powerless – that we don’t have the ability to do what we set our mind on.

When I was in elementary school, my PE teacher always told us she never wanted to hear us say the word “CAN’T.” That no matter how hard we thought it was, we COULD do it if we put our mind to it. Despite my struggles, and the ups and downs, the memory of her telling us to never say the word “can’t” when I start to say it to myself, comes back to me. And this is where that inner power/mental strength comes from. You have to remove the limits you put on yourself and believe that you have the power to do it, and push yourself beyond those limits.

I tested the theory of pushing myself beyond what I “thought” I could do these past 2 weekends. I’ve been running more and more, slowly increasing my distance before I run a 10K in September. But, I’ve never made it past about 4.5 – 5 miles. On the first Sunday, I told myself I was just going to go and do it. So, I ran out almost 3 miles, then turned around and went back the same 3. By the end I was walking, better yet practically crawling up the giant hill to our house, but when I got there, it was an amazing feeling to know I had just completed under 6 miles. This past weekend, I did the same thing and changed up the route. Having an idea that it was roughly 6 miles in my head. I headed out after winning a small battle in my head telling me not to go and did it. Over 6 miles later, running much more than the weekend before, I made it home feeling tired but psyched about what I had just accomplished.

run me picSo, never say never. Remove CAN’T from your vocabulary. Push yourself out of your comfort zone and take on the next challenge. And develop your mental muscle to become a stronger more powerful YOU.

The Mind of a Binge Eater

You all know I love me some Shaun T.  Well after finishing up Insanity Max 30, I couldn’t just walk away from Shaun T and all the positive energy and motivation he brings, so now that I’ve started running again, I’ve been listening to his podcast, Define Your Life on my runs.

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If you get a chance to listen to just one of his podcasts, it will make you think, give you motivation and make you want to go that much further in your life…not just your workouts.  Shaun was talking about being honest, sharing something hard in your life to help motivate and inspire others from the struggles you experienced.  Just as we ourselves learn from those struggles.  And it got me thinking….

A few months ago after beginning the journey to become an intuitive/mindful eater, I had a really bad binge day.  I started feeling like I was losing control and instead of stuffing one more piece of food in my mouth, I started to write down what was going through my crazy brain.

My hope in sharing this, as Shaun so inspired me, is that I can help others who suffer with Binge Eating Disorder know that they are not alone.

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This is probably the most personal thing I have ever shared on here, but I’ve been struggling more lately and finding what I had written down reminded me to keep going forward.  And as I have found, the more honest you are with yourself and those around you, the stronger you become as you let go of the “weight” of what is going on in your head.  So here it goes:

The thoughts of a binge eater….

The urge to binge is so strong.  My stomach aches from overeating.  “Indulging.”  The more my stomach hurts, the more my desire to binge grows.  My mind is racing.  Maybe I need to go for a run.  Maybe I need to just succumb to the urges.  Maybe just a cup of tea.  I decided on the tea although I really want to binge.  The inner war won’t stop.  I don’t want to run but only to “slow” the calories.  But that’s the diet mentality creeping in.  I’m nervous.  I’m starting a new workout program tomorrow.  Who do I want to impress though really? That’s why I’m nervous.  I don’t have to “report” any results though.  I only have to compete against myself.  Be better than I was the day before.  I’m a work in progress.  I don’t like the feeling of overeating.  My sides ache.  I feel like the food is still in my throat.  I have to listen to my hunger cues and fullness cues.  I don’t even like the taste of half the things I ate today.  I don’t like the frosting on the cookies.  The cheezits tasted good but left my stomach and throat feeling bitter.  The donut did the same.  It tasted good but at what cost?  The dinner was awesome and the fruit at lunch was good.  Have I really changed that much?  I desire all of these foods but then I eat them and they make me feel awful.  How do I know what I want?  I guess that’s part of the process.  Right?  I have to keep trying more things I haven’t had in awhile.  Then there is the urge to check myself in the mirror nonstop.  I want to weigh myself.  I have to accept my body the way it is.  It has done so many amazing things.  It finished Insanity.  At 250lbs!  That was 70lbs heavier than now!  70lbs Tracy!  You could do 0 of one move when you started back then but you kept trying.  You just kept going forward.  This body is so strong.  You can lift your daughter with ease.  Run up and down stairs.  Run!  You can run!!!  You don’t get out of breath going up the hill at work when so many others do.  Have faith in the body you have.  This is just a bump in the road to becoming an intuitive eater.  its a process.  Just like losing the weight…

So, there it is.  Just don’t forget you are not alone.  We always think we are going through things alone, but we’re not.  Write it down, work through it, call a friend, blog about it.  Learn from your struggles.  Turn them into positive energy to make you move a little further ahead.

I’m going to keep on running, moving forward, learning from my struggles, and reminding myself that it’s a journey, not a set end point.  There are always the ups and downs, there are always hard days, but there always great days, amazing days, days where I feel like I could run a marathon, do a 100 pushups…and I have to take the energy from those days and the energy from my struggles and propel me forward in life.

10933721_10206216926278591_8363157082338175270_nSo, I’m going to put on my neon yellow glasses and keep running for now!