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Diet Mentality vs Intuitive Eating and the Tooth Fairy

So life has been in full swing at the Cooke household lately…hence no blogging.  But there’s been a lot bouncing around in my head the last few days so I figured it was time to get at least some of it out there.

I’ve been trudging through the figurative mud lately when it comes to my journey to become an intuitive eater.

I know it needs to be done, but it is definitely going to be a hard journey.  There is a lot to overcome.

One of the first principles of Intuitive Eating is to reject the diet mentality.  Get over the idea of “losing weight”, “losing inches”, “losing something”.  You have to focus on yourself and forget the idea of something better is around the corner to help you get to a better version of yourself.  I’ve been in the “diet mentality” for 3 years solid.  I had an end goal to lose weight and I was focused.  I tracked what I ate and I exercised for the burn.  But now I have to focus on me.

As existential as it sounds, I have to accept myself as the current self.  This concept is so, so, so hard for me.  After focusing on that end goal of a smaller self, I forgot to accept just me.  I’ve talked about it before, but a lot of it is about learning to celebrate how far I have come.

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The constant battle in my brain though to want to track every molecule of food going into my mouth is minute by minute.  I go back and forth on tracking food to abandoning MFP altogether.  Tracking food became a norm, but it also became an obsession.

My other battle is weighing myself.  I know, I know….I have said it; we’ve all said,

You are not defined by the number on the scale.

But holy crap people that is harder to put in practice than saying it when you have weighed yourself EVERY F-ING DAY for 3 years straight.  And the scale mostly went down.  Not it goes all over the place.  Up and down.  I swear it even goes sideways.

I keep reminding myself that becoming an intuitive eater is a journey that I have begun just like when I began the journey to become a smaller, healthier me.  I’m still on that healthier me journey, but looking more inwards is always harder.

Outside of my crazy brain, what else has been happening?  LIFE!  First, the kid is growing up.  Too fast!  Like, can we just slow this down for a hot minute?  We had not 1 BUT 2 teeth lost and so the Tooth Fairy put on her wings and got to work!  There was a slight learning curve though….the Tooth Fairy quickly learned the value of a dollar bill vs. coins to a 5 year old.  Second time, she brought coins.

IMG_7467Sammo is also a reading machine.  She loves to read and we love that she loves it.

The independence that reading has given her has been tremendous!  She’s on a mission right now to read every Junie B. Jones book she can get her hands on and in the process got her very own library card.  We plan on doing the reading program at the library this summer and it brings back so many fond memories of going with my mom and sister or my grandparents during the summer to get my book stamped and picking out the next great book to read.

In other news, Mike and I celebrated our 10 year wedding anniversary this month.  I still don’t think we can believe it has been 10 years.  I remember it was like yesterday that we were heading out to Vegas to get married at the Little White Wedding Chapel.  We’ve had our ups and downs, but I have to say we are definitely getting better with age (and definitely smaller). 😉

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Over the past month and a half I have also been pushing myself to the limit when it comes to workouts.  I had made one of my goals this year to complete the Insanity Max 30 workout program.  I knew it was going to be tough, but I had NO IDEA!  I love Shaun T though and I love that this program has been pushing me mentally and not just physically.  You have to really push yourself and challenge yourself to overcome a hurdle in the workout and a lot of times it is about the mental struggle, not the physicality of it.  Either way, at the end of every workout, I look like a hot mess.

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It’s been a crazy couple of months.  We will keep challenging ourselves, learn new things, and celebrate the accomplishments we have made.

So, here’s to eating intuitively and throwing out my scale (on most days).

Cooke Family Year in Review

2014 was a pretty good year for the Cooke family!  It’s kind of crazy to think back to everything that happened.

January started off a little rough for us with the nasty cold weather (we made the best of it though by playing in the snow), myself getting shingles, and everyone else in the family being sick.  But February brought a better outlook for us all.  

Having fun in the snow!
Having fun in the snow!

Jobs. When February rolled around big changes came with it (unfortunately snowmageddon stayed a little longer though).  Mike got a job!  And a job he loves, doing what he loves, for a great local company.  After a few years of working retail and being a great stay at home dad, Mike headed into the corporate world.  It brought a lot of changes to our family dynamic, shuffling who goes where and when, but it was a great change we embraced.

Travel. Bring out the suitcases!  We had a lot of fun travels this year!  We took several trips including a short weekend for Mike and I to Gatlinburg, TN with friends, a mini family vacation to Ohio for some fun at Great Wolf Lodge and Kings Island, a road trip for Samantha and I to Oklahoma to see family and old friends and eat lots of yummy food, my first time going to New York City (and all by myself), and our first big family vacation to Indianapolis and Chicago to check out the amazing museums, sights, and a fun surprise seeing friends from long ago.

Health. This year also was the year of discovery when it came to our health.  For myself, I reached several milestones on my mission to shed the pounds and get healthy, including hitting -140lbs lost, celebrating 2 years on my journey, and logging into MyFitnessPal for 500 consecutive days.  I also started to refocus my goals and why I was getting healthy, paying less attention to the scale (when I willed myself to, it’s hard!) and more attention to the new body I was living in; making it stronger through new workout programs, learning to maintain, and finding a love for lifting weights. And how can I forget winning $500 from Beachbody for my accomplishments!

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Health-wise, I also learned why my body was freaking out on me at times after being diagnosed with Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. It was like I finally had an answer to what had been happening to me recently and in the past with my weight gains, losses, anxiety, depression, hair loss, etc.  Then the kiddo got checked out for her allergies and we finally had answers to her constant coughing and breathing issues.

Speaking of the kiddo, she GREW!  I’m not talking just taller, because she definitely did that, but mentally too.  She began writing, A LOT.  In full sentences!  She started reading, EVERYTHING!  She learned sign language and Spanish and basically ran circles around Mike and I (sass and all).  This year, Sammo found a best friend, began dance, and continues to grow into a smart, sweet, colorful, caring, little girl.

2015. What does 2015 hold for the Cooke family?  Definitely one amazing trip to Disney World, Samantha starting kindergarten, more goals to be set and accomplished, 10 years of marriage for Mike and I, and so much more!

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Happy New Year to all our friends and family!

Getting Healthy: Exclusions

Whenever I have started a “diet” before I was always excluding so many of the things I ate AND all at once.  Without fail I would end up hungry, cranky and mad.

This time around, making smart choices has been another lesson I have learned.   I LOVE food.  Seriously cannot emphasize LOVE enough.  But, with my smarter choices and becoming healthy, I still eat the things I love but either in smaller quantities or as a treat.  Also, my tastes have changed.  I find with the exercises I’m doing and while trying to find ways to maximize quality of food for calories, I am eating differently.

The one thing I have excluded completely is pop.  And, I think it’s one of the best decisions I made. Being a southern/midwest girl and living in Oklahoma and Texas for most of my childhood there was one pop I loved more than anything….Dr. Pepper.  But, becoming the healthy person I want to be made me realize that I had to give it up.  So, I started slowly.  I know some people are “all or nothing” types, but that is NOT me.  I have to learn to be without something.  I started going from 1 a day to 1 every other day to 1 a week and finally none at all.  Over 3 months to remove it completely from my diet, but it made it so much easier.

Mr. Mom

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Today is the first day of my new job as Mr. Mom. This will be the first time I have been alone taking care of our baby Sam all day. I will be there for her when she is hungry. I will be there for her when she is tired. I will be there for her when she is happy. I will be there for her when she is sad. I will be there for her for everything in between. I am looking forward to the adventures ahead. You can expect stories, pictures, movies, and more here on my blog.

Last Day of Work

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Today is my last day at the old Pet Smart. I worked there from June/July of 2008 to March of 2010. I worked on the registers, I took care of the pets, I stocked, and I managed. I have made friends that I will miss not seeing every day, but I will keep in touch with them on Facebook and by visiting the store. I never thought I would like working a job in Retail, but I loved it. Anyone that really knows me knows that I am very task oriented and love to organize, so I fit in great in the retail world. I worked with  a great group of managers and associates. It was really more like an extended family than it was work. Some of my favorite memories from work.

  • Putting the dog igloos up on the top shelves with Justin
  • Setting up the Top Stock shelves with Kara
  • First time working overnight with Kelly doing incremental pallets
  • Working alone open to close on a Sunday when Heather called in sick.
  • Going cash only one day during the ice storm with Dave & David
  • Working the trucks with Courtney
  • Counting items during inventory with Krystal and Kenny, yay 16+ hour day
  • Making trash Santas with Krystal
  • Getting the Forklift stuck outside in the snow with Kenny