Tag: Intuitive Eating

Diet Mentality vs Intuitive Eating and the Tooth Fairy

So life has been in full swing at the Cooke household lately…hence no blogging.  But there’s been a lot bouncing around in my head the last few days so I figured it was time to get at least some of it out there.

I’ve been trudging through the figurative mud lately when it comes to my journey to become an intuitive eater.

I know it needs to be done, but it is definitely going to be a hard journey.  There is a lot to overcome.

One of the first principles of Intuitive Eating is to reject the diet mentality.  Get over the idea of “losing weight”, “losing inches”, “losing something”.  You have to focus on yourself and forget the idea of something better is around the corner to help you get to a better version of yourself.  I’ve been in the “diet mentality” for 3 years solid.  I had an end goal to lose weight and I was focused.  I tracked what I ate and I exercised for the burn.  But now I have to focus on me.

As existential as it sounds, I have to accept myself as the current self.  This concept is so, so, so hard for me.  After focusing on that end goal of a smaller self, I forgot to accept just me.  I’ve talked about it before, but a lot of it is about learning to celebrate how far I have come.

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The constant battle in my brain though to want to track every molecule of food going into my mouth is minute by minute.  I go back and forth on tracking food to abandoning MFP altogether.  Tracking food became a norm, but it also became an obsession.

My other battle is weighing myself.  I know, I know….I have said it; we’ve all said,

You are not defined by the number on the scale.

But holy crap people that is harder to put in practice than saying it when you have weighed yourself EVERY F-ING DAY for 3 years straight.  And the scale mostly went down.  Not it goes all over the place.  Up and down.  I swear it even goes sideways.

I keep reminding myself that becoming an intuitive eater is a journey that I have begun just like when I began the journey to become a smaller, healthier me.  I’m still on that healthier me journey, but looking more inwards is always harder.

Outside of my crazy brain, what else has been happening?  LIFE!  First, the kid is growing up.  Too fast!  Like, can we just slow this down for a hot minute?  We had not 1 BUT 2 teeth lost and so the Tooth Fairy put on her wings and got to work!  There was a slight learning curve though….the Tooth Fairy quickly learned the value of a dollar bill vs. coins to a 5 year old.  Second time, she brought coins.

IMG_7467Sammo is also a reading machine.  She loves to read and we love that she loves it.

The independence that reading has given her has been tremendous!  She’s on a mission right now to read every Junie B. Jones book she can get her hands on and in the process got her very own library card.  We plan on doing the reading program at the library this summer and it brings back so many fond memories of going with my mom and sister or my grandparents during the summer to get my book stamped and picking out the next great book to read.

In other news, Mike and I celebrated our 10 year wedding anniversary this month.  I still don’t think we can believe it has been 10 years.  I remember it was like yesterday that we were heading out to Vegas to get married at the Little White Wedding Chapel.  We’ve had our ups and downs, but I have to say we are definitely getting better with age (and definitely smaller). 😉

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Over the past month and a half I have also been pushing myself to the limit when it comes to workouts.  I had made one of my goals this year to complete the Insanity Max 30 workout program.  I knew it was going to be tough, but I had NO IDEA!  I love Shaun T though and I love that this program has been pushing me mentally and not just physically.  You have to really push yourself and challenge yourself to overcome a hurdle in the workout and a lot of times it is about the mental struggle, not the physicality of it.  Either way, at the end of every workout, I look like a hot mess.

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It’s been a crazy couple of months.  We will keep challenging ourselves, learn new things, and celebrate the accomplishments we have made.

So, here’s to eating intuitively and throwing out my scale (on most days).

The Road to Intuitive Eating

Since my last post, I’ve been on a journey.  A culmination of things happened and I found myself discovering the world of intuitive eating.  I found the book “Intuitive Eating” by Evelyn Tribole and Elyse Resch and I am truly inspired.  While I am in the early stages to becoming an intuitive eater, I am hopeful that I have found the right path for the next phase of my life in the journey to a healthy me.

I don’t want to discount everything that has happened in the past, because it got me to where I needed to be, but along the way I kind of forgot how to just eat and LISTEN to my body.

Part of my journey has always been to be honest with those around me, but to also be honest with MYSELF!

With honesty though, you have to perk up and listen to what your body is telling you and I haven’t always done that when it comes to food.  When counting calories, I stayed on the course and accounted for every calorie that I ate.  And I wanted to make sure I ate every calorie I had.  I also became very rigid with when I ate, breakfast at 7:30, snack at 10, lunch at 11:30 and so on, but through this structure, I wasn’t listening to my body.  The structure gave me the means to lose the weight, but left me with no structure to hang onto when going into maintenance.

When you are on a diet or let’s not use that word…when you are on the journey to get healthy your ultimate end goal is to get to a freedom.  A freedom from the structure, the rigidity, and the constant confinement of the limitations you have put on yourself.  The problem is, at least for me, when I got to my goal and went into maintenance and removed that structure, I had lost trust in myself in the process.

Without the structure, I didn’t trust myself to maintain the course.

So now in moving towards the life of an Intuitive Eater, I am regaining that trust little by little.  Baby steps.  Just as I lost the weight, this next chapter in my life will be done by baby steps with the ups and downs that always come along the way.  I want to talk more about all the breakthroughs I am also having with my anxiety, binge eating, etc on this new journey, but I’ll leave that for next time!

This new course is a new challenge.  And speaking of challenges, I have to mention my amazing kiddo who seriously blew me away this past weekend.  After my last Color Me Rad run, she wanted to participate so bad, so I signed us up.  She pushed herself harder than I had ever seen her and ran at least half of the 5K distance.  There were little whines along the way, but she wasn’t going to give up.  So proud!

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