via Mike’s Pinterest
I’ve talked about it before, but I’m still trying to get used to my “new”, healthier body. Some days it hits me, like, wow, I’m really this size and other days I still see myself as the 300lb+ woman that I once was and questioning whether or not I can fit somewhere or worrying about breaking a chair.
Lately, I’ve been continuing to deal with a lot of emotional and mental issues surrounding my weight loss and life in general. Most days my current mental state is Anxiety/Depression 1 | Tracy 0. In turn, this reflects in my movement to get healthy. Literally. Like, I don’t want to move. I remind myself WHY I started this journey and how I feel after I workout or after I’ve had a good day of eating, but it doesn’t always work. It’s a journey though, right? Nothing is going to improve overnight and that’s what I remind myself of when it comes to my mental health, physical health, and overall health.
You are not perfect but you are on a path to improve yourself and to become a healthier, better version of yourself.
So for positive reinforcement and as a reminder of how far I’ve come, for a sort of Throwback Thursday, I wanted to look back at when I started Insanity until now. In April 2013 I started the Insanity workout program. I had hit the 250lb mark and had told myself that when I got there I would do Insanity. A workout program I knew little about other than from infomercials, the web, and in my mind being the hardest workout EVER. Well, it was the hardest workout ever, but I finished it and it changed my mental state. Forever. I went from being scared and not knowing my strength to feeling the strongest I had ever felt.
Completing Insanity propelled me into going after more fitness goals. Becoming stronger. Testing my limits.
I’ve realized now that that scared woman in April 2013 changed her mental state for good. Despite the anxiety and depression that creep back, despite motivation and willpower that waver from time to time, I changed my perspective. I changed my way of thinking. I KNOW I am a stronger person now – physically and mentally.
Here it is – the first “before” pic I took in April 2013 when I started Insanity to the “after” pic I took last month after completing 30 Day Shred.
Starting Weight: 317lbs | Current Weight: 183lbs | Goal Weight: 175lbs