Over the Memorial Day weekend I completed the first month and recovery week of the Insanity workout program. It was not easy. Yes, I missed a day or two and NO I cannot do an entire workout all the way through, but I pressed on. I persevered.
And, there have been A LOT of changes with my body. First, I had to STOP looking at the scale. I have become a little obsessed with weighing myself every day (I know, I know…), but the scale wasn’t moving like it had been during my weight loss before. I only lost 4lbs the entire 5 weeks, but there were other changes I had to focus on instead. I started relying more on measurements and on fitness achievements. I went from barely being able to do a “girl” push-up to being able to do a REAL push-up. On the first day I could barely make it through the warm up and by the end I could go from warm up to stretch to workout.
My Progress Pics Below | Yep, that’s me in my sports bra and workout pants….Day 1 to Day 35.
I’ve moved on to the 2nd month now and already am seeing more changes. As Shaun T would say, “Dig Deeper”!
Everyone always says you need motivation to lose weight. Well, that’s partially true. I had to have something to motivate me in the beginning, but it’s more determination and inspiration that get me through day by day.
An internet weight loss buddy of mine thanks to the subreddit r/loseit and MyFitnessPal always says, “motivation is an emotion, it comes and goes”. It really is true.
Determination is key. I’m determined now to make it through the Insanity program. I was determined to run 5K and I did it. I was determined to shed a few minutes off my run time and run under a 10min mile and I did it. I was determined to be able to hold a plank for 20sec and I did it. I AM DETERMINED to make it to my 50% weight loss goal. I don’t need motivation every day – now it’s sheer determination and stubbornness to prove it to myself that I can do whatever I set my mind to.
Inspiration is something else that has helped me every day. Every day I get on r/loseit and MyFitnessPal (add me as a friend – username is libelluler) and see the amazing success stories. People just like me who figured it out and did it and got to their goal. Whether it was 200lbs they had to lose or only 20lbs, they figured it and did it. Each and every one of those people inspire me to keep going.
In a discussion on r/loseit, people were talking about what is something that someone said that kept you going and this really rang true for me:
I remember that I don’t have a choice anymore, because living my life in a shitty body is no longer an option for me. I remember that I want to be an example to other people, that anyone can defeat obesity and morbid obesity. Anyone can find out that they are worth more than they ever imagined, that we are each the most precious gift anyone else has ever seen.
I reached a HUGE goal today! HUGE! I made it to the 50% mark of my weight loss goal. This has been a goal that has been just within my reach over the last few weeks, but after stalling out I felt I would never get here.
In 8 months, I have lost 71 lbs. 71! Yes, I know, it is not an even number, but to get to 175 from 317, 71lbs is 50% of the way.
Mike keeps telling me…um..reminding me that I need to blog more (since this is the blog of Mike AND Tracy). So, one of the things that is central to my life is the journey I am on to lose weight and get healthy.
A little background first. I’ve always been a “big” girl for most of my adult life – 16+ years and on. In high school I thought I was HUGE, but I wasn’t. I wore a 14/16 around this time which a year ago didn’t even seem like an attainable size to me. I hovered around 200lbs and stayed there through most of college, but then my depression and anxiety got the best of me and I let it take me away to happy food coma land and the weight started to pile on.
Skip ahead to a little over 3 years ago. I was at 300+ lbs and I got pregnant. I was thrilled, but I was pregnant AND 310 (give or take a few) lbs! My doctor told me I was in the “high risk” category for pregnancy because of my weight and my heart sank, but I didn’t have any problems the entire time and had a happy, healthy little girl. After losing the “baby weight” (30 more lbs) I stood at 315 – 320 lbs and I stayed there.
Then, around August 2012 I started “thinking” about “starting” to get healthy as I had done many times before, but I wasn’t really serious about it. I would work out here and there and maybe track my calories for half a day and stop. We went on vacation in September and I pigged out. When we got home I weighed in at 317lbs! Now I started getting mad at myself and I got determined to do something.
September 24th changed it all though. I was at work and started getting this strange tingling in my chest. After awhile my anxiety kicked in and I actually started getting worried about it. I went home after work, kept feeling this weird feeling in my chest and finally went to Urgent Care. An ambulance ride later and who knows how much blood and whatever tests later I was NOT having a heart attack, but I had one MAJOR wake up call.
It makes me upset sometimes to think that it wasn’t getting pregnant, it wasn’t having a kid, or it wasn’t weighing in at a whopping 317lbs that made me get off my ass, but thinking I was having a heart attack that did. But, it was MY wake up call. I want to be healthy for my family and for myself.
And that’s one of the biggest lessons I have learned so far…I have to think about MYSELF to be able to be healthy for my family.