Category: Tracy

Getting Healthy: Vacations

Ah, vacations.  Vacations are great for so many things, but usually not so great for your diet.  I went to Oklahoma to visit family and have a mini family reunion the week of July 4th.

I had plans to be good during my vacation…stick to my diet (as much as I could), exercise, etc.  Along the way of spending time with family and after looking back on pictures, I learned a few more things about myself in this journey to get healthy that I wanted to share:

  • I no longer see myself as the “fat” girl in the pictures.  Browsing through the pictures my mom took, I stopped at one (below) and said to myself, “who’s that girl in the purple shirt with my cousins?…what the?…..that’s me?”  I didn’t even recognize myself at first.  Blew. My. Mind.


  • Exercising is a part of me now.  Granted I didn’t exercise every day, but I did some instead of just blowing off.  And once was with my sister which was AWESOME because she is like my “healthy person” idol.  Plus, I actually really missed my daily exercise. What?

  • Eating well is a part of me now.  I tracked my calories as I always do.  I decided about halfway during the week to change my calories to maintenance level and just go with it.  I still ate under maintenance most days and I made better choices all along the way, recognizing when I was cheating.

  • If you gain a little during vacation, so what?  So what?!  Well, it’s what you do about it afterwards that really makes a difference.  For me, a year ago if I had gone on vacation after “dieting” I would have kept on my bad ways and made it a bad month…or quarter…or year again.  But now, I got home, turned MyFitnessPal back on losing mode and started back at it.  I gained 2 lbs over my vacation and as of today it’s already gone.

  • Sharing my accomplishments with friends and family is great.  I’m proud of myself and where I have come.  It wasn’t long ago that sharing something like that would have been hard for me.  During my trip, I got to see one of my oldest and dearest friends and feeling good about myself and seeing the picture below from that visit makes me even more proud of my accomplishments.


Starting Weight: 317lbs | Current Weight: 232lbs | Goal Weight: 175lbs

Getting Healthy: Yes I am Insane (Final Results)

I was going to wait until Wednesday when I normally post, but I had to share the news! I finished the Insanity workout program on Saturday!  I seriously cried.  I can’t believe I am admitting that, but I cried.  I cried because I’m actually going to miss it (what?!) and I’m proud of myself for sticking to it and pushing myself to where I didn’t think I could go.

Before, during, and after the program you take fit tests to see how you are improving throughout the program.  Basically the fit test gives you 1 minute to do a particular move as many times as possible.  Below is what each move looks like:

insanity-fit-test-sheetLooking back at my first fit test and comparing it to the last test, I just can’t believe how much I improved myself.  Seriously the first fit test I attempted a push-up jack and fell flat on my face, attempted 1 more, same result.  I did 20 on the last fit test.  20!

  • Switch kicks: 36 –> 90
  • Power jacks: 28 –> 43
  • Power knee: 55 –> 83
  • Power jumps: 12 –> 37
  • Globe jumps: 6 –> 10
  • Suicide jumps: 7 –> 13
  • Push-up jacks: 0 –> 20
  • Low plank obliques: 43 –> 60

Then there are the major changes with my body after this 60 day adventure:

Start to end - Insanity (side) Start to end - Insanity (front)

Not just with appearance, but physically I feel better.  Things are just easier.  Here are some stats though:

  • Weight: – 16lbs
  • Waist: -3″
  • Hips: – 3″
  • Arms (total of both): -1″
  • Thighs (total of both): – 3″
  • Calf (total of both): – .5″
  • Down 2 sizes in clothes

If you’ve EVER thought about doing Insanity, just do it.  It will change your life.

Starting weight: 317lbs | Current weight: 234lbs | Goal weight: 175lbs

Getting Healthy: Depression, Anxiety & Losing Weight

Many of my close friends and family know that I struggle with anxiety and depression.  In college I was diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD), Clinical Depression, and Panic Attacks.  These disorders are not fun to live with, but it is a part of who I am and for most of my adult life I have embraced them and learned to deal.

I have my good days and bad.  I’ve been on all manner of medications…pretty much name it and I’ve probably taken it, but after a lot of struggle and most of my weight gain I made the decision 5 years ago to get off all medication.  I learned breathing exercises, how to calm myself during and after a panic attack, and how to focus my anxiety in other ways.  But, I’m not perfect, so this doesn’t work all the time.

In my journey to get healthy and lose the weight, I’ve noticed I am working through the anxiety and depression in different ways and they effect me differently.  Everyone keeps telling me they wished they had my motivation to keep exercising.  Take a really good day and add depression or anxiety to it and all that motivation is wiped away and I’m wondering where it is too.  I constantly battle internally between my depression telling me to go back to bed and my “healthy” self telling me to GET THE F UP and workout.  And most days lately, my healthy self is winning out.  I’ve also noticed that as I become more fit, my anxiety has decreased.  I’ve become better at my breathing exercises by becoming more physically fit.

All I want to say is that if you are battling depression and/or anxiety and trying to lose weight, you can do it.  And then, there are pics like the below that really make me keep things in perspective on why I am on this journey and to know I have the strength to reach my goals.

me and sam - jul 2011 - mar 2013

Getting Healthy: Thank you MyFitnessPal


I’ve mentioned MyFitnessPal before, but without this handy program/app I wouldn’t have made it as far as I have come in my weight loss journey.  MyFitnessPal is a completely free calorie tracking program via the web and/or mobile phone app that allows you to input your food via manual input, searching through their HUGE database (including TONS of restaurants/fast food places), putting recipes in, and even with a bar code scanner!

When you set up a profile, it calculates your daily calorie needs based on age, weight, height, how much you want to lose, and your activity level.  Then you have accountability and a way to see what is going in your mouth!  The key is to put EVERYTHING in, no matter what; good days or bad days.

One of the other things I LOVE about MyFitnessPal is how many things you can track and then see reports like the below.  It’s serious motivation for me and the nerd in me loves a good chart.  weightprogress

Thank you Insanity for the awesome chart on calories burned over the last 7 days!

Free Calorie Counter, Diet & Exercise Journal -

Also, you can make some really great friends on MyFitnessPal.  I have met so many people in the same process and we help motivate each other every day.  It really makes you feel good when people recognize the hard work you are putting in and you are able to help motivate others on their journey.

If you want to add me as a friend, please do:

Starting Weight: 317lbs | Current Weight: 238lbs | Goal Weight: 175lbs

Getting Healthy: It’s Not All About the Scale

When I first began my journey to get healthy and lose weight, I focused a lot on the number on the scale.  Yes, overall, your weight is a good indicator that you are making your goals, but I’ve learned that a lot of times this isn’t always the best way to measure your success.

Sep to Jan to Jun

One of the ways I have measured my success is through comparison pictures like the one above and through taking measurements of my body.  A coworker said to me the other day that my face has really changed during this process and I guess I just see myself as ME and haven’t recognized it.  But, when I put the pictures together I really SEE the changes now.  Like, wow, my chin is pointy.

Taking measurements has also been very rewarding, especially on weeks when I haven’t lost any weight, but I know there are obvious changes happening.  Since October, I’ve lost more than 30″ over my body (measuring my neck, waist, hips, arms, thighs, and calves).

So remember, it’s not always the scale going down, but the changes overall that are happening to your body.

Start Weight: 317lbs | Current Weight: 238 lbs | Goal Weight: 175 lbs | Total Inches Lost: 30.5″

Getting Healthy: Yes I Am Insane (Update)

Over the Memorial Day weekend I completed the first month and recovery week of the Insanity workout program.  It was not easy.  Yes, I missed a day or two and NO I cannot do an entire workout all the way through, but I pressed on.  I persevered.

And, there have been A LOT of changes with my body.  First, I had to STOP looking at the scale.  I have become a little obsessed with weighing myself every day (I know, I know…), but the scale wasn’t moving like it had been during my weight loss before.  I only lost 4lbs the entire 5 weeks, but there were other changes I had to focus on instead.  I started relying more on measurements and on fitness achievements.  I went from barely being able to do a “girl” push-up to being able to do a REAL push-up.  On the first day I could barely make it through the warm up and by the end I could go from warm up to stretch to workout.

My Progress Pics Below | Yep, that’s me in my sports bra and workout pants….Day 1 to Day 35.

Start to end Month 1 Insanity ALL

I’ve moved on to the 2nd month now and already am seeing more changes.  As Shaun T would say, “Dig Deeper”!

Start Weight: 317lbs | Current Weight: 241lbs | Goal Weight: 175lbs