Since my last post, I’ve been on a journey. A culmination of things happened and I found myself discovering the world of intuitive eating. I found the book “Intuitive Eating” by Evelyn Tribole and Elyse Resch and I am truly inspired. While I am in the early stages to becoming an intuitive eater, I am hopeful that I have found the right path for the next phase of my life in the journey to a healthy me.
I don’t want to discount everything that has happened in the past, because it got me to where I needed to be, but along the way I kind of forgot how to just eat and LISTEN to my body.
Part of my journey has always been to be honest with those around me, but to also be honest with MYSELF!
With honesty though, you have to perk up and listen to what your body is telling you and I haven’t always done that when it comes to food. When counting calories, I stayed on the course and accounted for every calorie that I ate. And I wanted to make sure I ate every calorie I had. I also became very rigid with when I ate, breakfast at 7:30, snack at 10, lunch at 11:30 and so on, but through this structure, I wasn’t listening to my body. The structure gave me the means to lose the weight, but left me with no structure to hang onto when going into maintenance.
When you are on a diet or let’s not use that word…when you are on the journey to get healthy your ultimate end goal is to get to a freedom. A freedom from the structure, the rigidity, and the constant confinement of the limitations you have put on yourself. The problem is, at least for me, when I got to my goal and went into maintenance and removed that structure, I had lost trust in myself in the process.
Without the structure, I didn’t trust myself to maintain the course.
So now in moving towards the life of an Intuitive Eater, I am regaining that trust little by little. Baby steps. Just as I lost the weight, this next chapter in my life will be done by baby steps with the ups and downs that always come along the way. I want to talk more about all the breakthroughs I am also having with my anxiety, binge eating, etc on this new journey, but I’ll leave that for next time!
This new course is a new challenge. And speaking of challenges, I have to mention my amazing kiddo who seriously blew me away this past weekend. After my last Color Me Rad run, she wanted to participate so bad, so I signed us up. She pushed herself harder than I had ever seen her and ran at least half of the 5K distance. There were little whines along the way, but she wasn’t going to give up. So proud!